In the first
hour of another life, I named you god and took to singing the glory
of you.
Even the feral
saints called me mad but I was intoxicated, then, with the glory of
you.
But that was another life,
and its echo my curse. Somewhere in time, a symphony stirs,
but my praise songs and prophecies
are nothing more than a sad girl’s story of you.
When I said
I would find you anywhere, I thought there was nothing I could not foresee.
But blindfolded,
bereft, I cannot locate the name you live by now in my rosary of you.
Do you remember
how I came to your door, a vagabond, night after night? You asked what
magic or weapon
I dispelled wolves and fiends with, but all I had was the armory of
you.
And, lover,
if you only knew – the only demon I knew was you. Caught between your
teeth,
losing my head
between your thighs, my fate irresistible, even knowing the augury of
you.
I inhabit the
past now, I speak no more predictions. To forget is mere Cassandra wish
– and
would I want
to? The nights are so long, and there is no body warm as the memory
of you.

